HungerFF’s Anti-Memoir Deeper Hits #1 on Amazon Before Even Releasing — Proving Queer Readers Are Hungry for Unfiltered Truth

FORT LAUDERDALE, FL — December 18, 2025 — Just days after announcing pre-orders, Deeper, the debut memoir by Ryan James Abraham (known internationally as HungerFF), has hit #1 on Amazon’s Pop Culture bestseller list—a rare achievement for a book not yet released.

The 497-page anti-memoir, set for March 1, 2026 release through HFF Media Inc, has struck a nerve with readers seeking narratives that don’t package trauma as inspiration or demand tidy redemption arcs.

“I didn’t write this to be liked,” Abraham states in the book’s opening. “I wrote it because I lived. And for now, that feels like enough.”

For the readers driving the book to #1, that resonates.

Why This Matters for Queer Literature

The success of Deeper during pre-order suggests a shift in what queer readers want from memoir. Abraham’s book refuses every convention of recovery literature: no moment of clarity, no spiritual awakening, no promise that suffering yields wisdom. Instead, it offers something potentially more valuable—evidence that survival without resolution is still survival.

For nearly two decades, Abraham has been a polarizing figure in queer adult entertainment as HungerFF, an internationally recognized pioneer in the fisting community. His work has drawn mainstream attention through appearances on The Howard Stern Show and The H3 Podcast, where he’s been called “the Tom Brady of fisting.” But his creative reach extends far beyond performance.

As creator and host of Brolapse, his flagship podcast offering raw, darkly funny insights into sex, trauma, addiction, and healing, Abraham has built a devoted following drawn to his unflinching honesty. His second podcast, Legends of Fisting, explores the unsung history and icons of queer kink culture. Together, these shows have reshaped how people talk about queer bodies and queer pain with zero censorship and total heart.

Now, with Deeper hitting #1 before release, Abraham has proven that audience isn’t niche—it’s substantial, engaged, and ready for literature that treats them like adults.

What The Book Actually Is

Spanning 60 chapters across five thematic sections—FREEFALL, VICES, BREAKS, DRIFT, and CLIMB—Deeper chronicles Abraham’s journey through addiction, sex work, algorithmic exploitation, and the ongoing work of survival.

The book explores:

• The rainbow baby mythology: being born to heal someone else’s wounds and the impossible burden that creates
• The transformation from Ryan James to RJ Danvers to HungerFF—and what gets lost when persona becomes more real than person
• Five years of sobriety working at a comic book store, why it worked, and why it ended
• The Paris suicide attempt that failed because he was “too fucking tired to jump”
• A perforated colon, pulmonary embolism, arrest, betrayal, and the physical price of performance
• What it means to sell your body to the algorithm—and whether consciousness of the trap equals escape from it

With nonlinear storytelling, meta-commentary, and razor-edged vulnerability, Abraham dissects the cost of building a public self in the attention economy. Two chapters—Infested and Noise—contain explicit content warnings, not out of caution, but out of respect for readers entering the book’s darkest territories.

“This isn’t just a story about flesh,” Abraham writes. “It’s a story about erasure. About what happens when a body becomes content. When an identity becomes a business model.”

The Multimedia Approach

Abraham’s expansion into authorship is part of a broader creative evolution. With the launch of the HungerFF Sound Initiative, he’s moved into sound engineering and atmospheric audio production, with original compositions now available on Apple Music and Spotify.

In an innovative publishing move, the audiobook version of Deeper will be released as serialized bonus content on the Brolapse podcast, with new chapters released weekly beginning March 1, 2026—the same day as the physical book launch. This approach blurs the line between traditional publishing and podcast media, allowing Abraham to reach his established audience while introducing new listeners to both his memoir and his audio work.

From viral content creator to podcast host to author to sound engineer, Abraham’s work spans mediums while maintaining a singular vision: telling the truth about queer survival without apology, sanitization, or easy answers.

What Readers Are Saying

Early response has been emphatic:

“Finally, a recovery memoir that doesn’t lie to us about how recovery actually works.”

“This is the book I needed when I couldn’t hear my own voice through the noise.”

“Abraham refuses to make queer pain palatable, and that refusal is exactly what makes this essential.”

“Every content creator selling themselves online needs to read this. It’s a preview of where the logic terminates.”

“Not a confession. Not a performance. A middle finger to the silence.”

Why Now

Deeper arrives at a moment when conversations about algorithmic culture, content creation, and the commodification of authenticity have moved from academic theory to lived crisis. Creators across platforms are grappling with what Abraham articulates viscerally: the seduction of visibility, the trap of persona construction, the cost of making your body into content.

Abraham’s contribution isn’t just personal testimony—it’s cultural analysis from inside the machine. He’s not theorizing about attention economy; he’s documenting what it does to a nervous system, a relationship, a sense of self.

For queer readers specifically, Deeper offers something rare: a narrative that doesn’t separate queerness from the story of survival, doesn’t pathologize desire or addiction, and doesn’t promise that pain will be redeemed by meaning.

“I’m not here to hand you a blueprint,” Abraham says. “I’m here to show you what it looks like when you refuse to disappear.”

The pre-order response suggests readers are ready for exactly that.

Availability

Deeper is available for pre-order on Amazon in eBook, paperback, and hardcover formats.

Published by: HFF Media Inc
Release Date: March 1, 2026
Pages: 497
ISBN: 979-8-89940-630-0
Price: $9.99 (eBook) | $19.99 (Paperback) | $29.99 (Hardcover)
Audiobook: Serialized weekly on Brolapse podcast beginning March 1, 2026

Current Status: #1 Amazon Bestseller in Pop Culture (as of December 18, 2025)

Book tour dates and virtual events will be announced in early 2026.

About Ryan James Abraham

Ryan James Abraham is a storyteller, survivalist, and cultural disruptor best known as HungerFF, an internationally recognized figure in the queer adult community. For nearly two decades, he has pushed boundaries on-screen and off, using his platform to explore the intersections of sexuality, addiction, identity, and self-worth.

Abraham is the creator and host of Brolapse, offering raw, darkly funny insights into his personal journey through sex, trauma, addiction, and healing, and Legends of Fisting, which dives into the unsung history and icons of queer kink culture. His work has been featured on The Howard Stern Show and The H3 Podcast.

With the launch of the HungerFF Sound Initiative, Abraham has expanded into sound engineering and atmospheric audio production, with original compositions available on major streaming platforms.

Deeper is his debut memoir—a brutally honest and often darkly humorous account of what it means to fall, survive, and ask the hardest question of all: who am I without the performance?

Abraham lives in Fort Lauderdale, Florida, with his dog Eightball, his chosen family, and a relentless hunger to keep telling the truth whether the world is ready or not.

About HFF Media Inc

HFF Media Inc is a multimedia production company founded by Ryan James Abraham, dedicated to creating unflinching, boundary-pushing content across platforms. From podcasts to music production to literary works, HFF Media amplifies voices and stories that refuse to be sanitized, celebrating queer culture, kink communities, and radical honesty in all its forms.

Contact Information

Media Inquiries:
HFF Media Inc
Email: [email protected]
Website: HungerFF.com

Pre-Order:
Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0G6Y9HL5V

Social Media:
Instagram: @brolapsepodcast

Podcasts:
Brolapse: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/brolapse/
Legends of Fisting: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/legendsoffisting/

Music (HungerFF Sound Initiative):
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/6aF3au90XYzulnjGqMBpA1
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/us/artist/hungerff/1843797755

Review Copies:
Advanced review copies available upon request for media and literary publications.

Content Advisory

Deeper contains explicit discussions of drug use, sexual content, medical trauma, mental health crises, and discussions of abuse. Specific content warnings precede chapters “Infested” and “Noise.” This book is intended for mature audiences.

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“This book isn’t for comfort. It’s for contact. If you’ve ever rebuilt yourself from scraps, if you’ve ever laughed at your own grief because it was either that or scream, you might recognize yourself here.”
— Ryan James Abraham, from the prologue to Deeper