
Episode 77: From Addiction Counselor to Fisting Top: Grayson Howell on Confidence, Kink, and Chicago’s Scene
In Episode 77 of Brolapse, Ryan James (HungerFF) sits down with Chicago-based creator Grayson Howell to talk about the unexpected path that led him into content creation, kink culture, and the world of fisting.

Episode 76: Josh Mikael — Truth, Trauma, and Why Not Everyone Deserves Your Story
In this raw and deeply personal episode of Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with one of his closest friends and former roommate, Josh Mikael, for a conversation that spans decades of history, hard truths, and unconditional love.

Episode 75: From First Fist to Full Confidence: Ian Greene on Growth, Boundaries & Trusting Your Body
This week on Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with Ian Greene for a long-overdue conversation that spans years of crossing paths, shared experiences, and personal evolution.

Episode 74: John Thomas — Fantasy, Responsibility, and the Reality Behind the Scene
In Episode 74 of Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with John Thomas for a conversation that goes far beyond the surface of porn.

Episode 73: Wyld Ryder: Becoming the Pig You Are
In this episode of Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with Chicago-based creator Wyld Ryder for a candid conversation about confidence, kink, and the slow burn of becoming fully yourself.

Episode 72: The HungerFF Sound Initiative Part 2
Brolapse Episode 72 completes the HungerFF Sound Initiative with four new tracks—Schlop Schlop, I Cleaned Out for This, Assgasm, and Built to Fist—exploring fisting culture through sound, rhythm, and industrial fantasy before the show returns to its regular interview format.

Episode 70: The HungerFF Sound Initiative Part 1
Brolapse Episode 71 launches the HungerFF Sound Initiative, a genre-bending music project blending kink, humor, and electronic experimentation. Part One introduces the concept, creative motivation, and first wave of tracks, expanding Brolapse beyond interviews while setting up a two-part audio series.

Episode 70: Rocco Steele on Letting Go, Living Truth, and the Chapter After “Rocco”
In Episode 70, Rocco Steele joins me for an honest, reflective talk about stepping away from the industry and what it means to finally let a public persona become a smaller and smaller piece of your life. Rocco shares how a serious health scare shifted his priorities, how his husband

Episode 69: No Safe Words (A Sneak Peek at Deeper)
Instead of a guest, this episode offers a first listen to Deeper—his forthcoming memoir—presented here in its unedited author’s version. Ryan reads the full prologue, No Safe Words, followed by the first chapter, Impact, giving listeners an intimate introduction to the book’s voice, structure, and intent before final editorial revisions.

Episode 68: Intimacy Over Performance — A Fisting Top’s Perspective (feat. Brogan)
In Episode 68 of Brolapse, Ryan sits down with Brogan for a rare and deeply thoughtful conversation from the perspective of a fisting top—a voice we don’t hear nearly often enough.